December 28, 2011/ 9:53 PM
Today’s weather was better than the past two days and nights that i’ve spent here in Mindoro. But just like the past days, I didn’t do anything fun.. Just before it got dark (I mean really dark since it took time before the street lights lit up), I managed to take some pictures around the place and i can’t help but somehow feel sad about certain truths in the state of life in our neighborhood. It seems like nothing has changed. I’m afraid it has worsen even more over the years.. It’s been eight years since i first left this place to study in the university and yet the same problems exist now. Deteriorated houses (not to mention the not-owned land where the houses were built), out of school youths, malnourished children, jobless adults and a lot more basic necessities. I hope i can do something to help out and alleviate poverty in this place.. I want to make an impact. Sooner or later i really wish i could.
Bukas, sa pagsilay ng bagong umaga, kalilimutan ko na ang lahat ng sakit upang sa muli’y aking maalala ang lahat ng masasaya at magagandang nangyari. Wala akong pinagsisisihan sapagkat naniniwala akong ang lahat ay nangyari at mangyayari pa ayun sa higit na ikabubuti. In the course of seeking for healing, i have realized that brokenness is what i really needed so i can become whole again. :’D
God, i do not understand it, but i trust You. And i am not going to spend all my time trying to figure out why certain things have happened. I am going to trust you to make something good out of it. You are a good God, and i know You have my best interests at heart. You promised that all things will work together for my good. I am holding on, still and steadfast.
I miss us. I really do.
Whenever i’m on a crossroad, i should always think about the CROSS of Christ. I believe that as a Christian, crossroads in my life are meant to highlight the power of the Cross within me- that is the power to choose where i will go basing on mercy and grace that God has given me. The direction i choose either shows my gratitude and deeper appreciation of the Cross or the lack of both.